Departure.

I'm not ready. At all.

This is what I find myself saying more and more as the day approaches. The "day" I am pertaining to is Saturday, for this is the day that Ben and Alec, two of my most solid friends, leave for Fort McMurray for who knows how long.

I am not going to pretend that I am one hundred percent enthusiastic that they are going, but I am far past the point where I am going to wish they weren't going. I'm past being selfish. Despite what this entry may apply.

For me to say I'm not jealous would be lying. It will be the adventure of a lifetime.
For me to say I don't want to go would be lying. I just don't think I'm ready yet.

I don't have much more to say. I just hope they come back.